Rough

Hey Heidi,

Yeah things have been a little rough. I wont lie. A mission in the south is tough. (tougher then I thought it would be) Theres just alot thats expected of me and I dont feel that I can deliever. Sort of feel......inadequite? Yeah thats a good word for it. Im not a good teacher when I try to teach the gospel. LOL I feel sometimes that Im behind in some respects, not worthiness issues, but like teaching.......yeah. ITs just been a tough week. Losing really potentious investigators. (though we have others) its still hard to see and watch. The south is a very hard-headed people thats for show. Trying to convince someone that there is more out there. when there whole life has been centered around one way of thinking is a tough pattern to crack. Just for them to listen to us is a miracle! So yeah its been tough. Ive been told (basically by the mission President) that im going to be taking over the Wetumpka area this next transfer. (three weeks) So im stressing out about that because I just feel inadequite really. Then I have this nagging voice in my head that constantly tells me to "just go home" "give up" " your not good enough" and I cant seem to get them to leave. I work hard, probably the hardest Ive ever had to work and I feel like im smahing my head against a wall because nothing is happening. its just hard. I knew it would be and didnt all at the same time. I do know this though. This is something I need to stick out. So that sometime in my mission I wont need to "Stick it out" anylonger. That I will find my stride and be a better teacher. Thats the impression that I get. I believe that this is a humbling phase in my misison. So that I can do those things that I was sent here to do specifically. Theres no going home for me. I just cant. I must admitt though that its been hard being away from family, friends, etc. Its tough. I hope that this phase in my mission goes by fast. Im tired of it LOL. I love you Heidi.

Oh yeah. How are you paying for my mission. Is grandpa sending money? who all is giving so that I may know.

Love you,

Elder Andesen